When we were listening to the last General Conference, my heart was heavy.
This was just after you “came out” about your loss of faith, and it gave me extra purpose and desire to hear the truth—to listen to the words of the prophets.
In many ways, my own testimony was also struggling, because I have always taught that when you are reading your scriptures, praying, and going to church, you’re not going to lose your testimony. Those things continually nourish it. I don’t know a single person who has fallen away from the Church while consistently doing the primary answers. And the fact that you had been doing these things—at least the motions of them—shook my faith. How many hundreds of hours have we spent together reading and praying? How many testimonies have we shared with each other?
And yet, here we were.
And then I heard Elder Brown’s talk, the Eternal Gift of Testimony.
The Spirit was strong. His words resonated with me because when you know, you know.
At the time, I felt that his message would also resonate with you—that it might remind you of the testimony you once had. I believe that testimony is still somewhere inside you. Once you can shed the doubts and the gloom, perhaps it will shine again.
While it doesn’t appear that his testimony moved you at the time, it did me. It was a tender mercy where spirit was strong and it reminded me that I know that I know.